Weekend Wrap up

I suppose the fun had to end. Two extra days at home because of snow and no more holidays.

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But on the bright side. Mondays mean back to a routine and I love me a good routine. I’m hoping my classes tonight at the gym will be back in full swing, we’ve had little showing the last two weeks because of the holidays.

So lets wrap this up

Friday: Getting to work from home was fantastic. I did end up having to go to a wake Friday night but we didn’t stay long there. I headed over to Burton’s to grab a drink and some apps with the girls. We haven’t gotten to sit down and chat just the 5 of us since the holidays so it was really great to catch up.

Saturday: Coached a great 7am class. Then I head to head out for the Funeral. That took up most of my early morning came home and got some cleaning and laundry done. It’s amazing how fast my laundry piles up even when I was barely at work this week. I also treated myself and bought a new Again Faster Rev rope I’ve been needing. When they announced a new Neon Line I knew I needed to own the pink on! CJ and I decided to stay home saturday night and make some pizza and continue with our new addiction of watching Parenthood.

Sunday: Egg sandwiches, errands, groceries, and laundry. Going back to work means lots of preparation on Sundays. I do love Sundays though because there is no rush. We got up, had coffee and breakfast and relaxed on the couch (and watched parenthood, we are both completely addicted now) Finally dragged our butts up to get groceries. CJ grilled up some delicious steak and I made some steamed broccoli and mashed cauliflower. It was so good!

All and all our weekend was just how we like it. Relaxing and getting to spend time together and with friends ūüôā

I have a few posts I’m¬†working on about tracking and measuring¬†weight loss. I’m also going to post my own along with my first set of progress pictures. BLEH!

Happy Monday!

Weighing yourself

Sometimes I have so many topics and idea I want to share on here. Things I’ve struggled with and things I want to get off my chest and I just don’t always know how to put them into words.

When I was in the middle of my weightloss I would weigh myself every morning. I’d get up, I’d go pee, and then I’d weigh myself every.single.day. When I started to crossfit I started to put on a few pounds and I panicked. I went to Todd and I cried that I worked so hard and now I was putting on weight, he talked me off the crazy ledge and explained that I was now lifting significant weight and that would affect my body composition. He talked me into giving up the scale.¬† For a good year or more I was happy to not see the number on the scale everyday. It would be a nice surprise when I went to the doctors and they weighed me.

Now, for the past two months or so, with all the crazy stuff going on in my life and the unhappiness, I knew I was slipping, but I wouldn’t step on the scale to admit it. Here is where the balance needs to be found. I needed to find the balance between my obsessive weighing and not stepping on because I’m afraid to admit what I will see.

This past year has been tough for me. I’ve been through a lot of struggles, now that it is 2014 and things are starting to even out, I’m ready and I’m excited to get back on track. To step on the scale, see the truth, and move on. But, this time, my goals are not strictly number based. I don’t even have a number in my head of my “dream weight” I just want to be healthy and happy. That is the biggest tip I can give people out there. Do not put all of your goals on that number the scale shows you, find something else, find a pair of jeans you really want to fit back into, find a PR you want to hit, or a race you want to run. Base your progress off of something much more gratifying than the number that comes up when you step on that cold scale.

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Another Snow Day

Best part about living in New England, snow days! Because of the over 12 inches of snow currently outside my house I get to work from home again today.

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Thank you storm Hercules

I was on my own last night so I decided to make something spicy and delicious for dinner.I think this was the best stir fry I have ever made.

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I saut√©ed¬†chicken in garlic and¬†teriyaki sauce. Then I added peppers, onions, and broccoli slaw with some soy sauce and siracha. I let that all cook together and ate it over some brown rice with more siracha.¬† It was so yummy I went back for seconds! Worst part of the night though…I’m officially out of siracha!

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This is awful! I need to go out and get more asap! lol

After dinner I snuggled up on the couch with the pup and watched The Way Way Back and took the opportunity to have a little girly time. I painted my nails and did my favorite face mask. When the boys away the girls will primp ūüôā

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I’m usually not a huge fan of nude nail polish but I am a fan of this one. It has a little bit of purple tint to it which I like.

Now I’m¬†logged onto work and trying to work with a dog on my lap. When I’m¬†home during the day she takes it as her opportunity to get as much attention as possible and will lay completely across my lap.

Best part about working from home during the day, home-made breakfast! My omelette making skills are starting to get better. This morning I made one with peppers, onions, spinach, and mozzarella cheese. I also had 2 slices of cinnamon and raison Ezekiel bread with almond butter on the side. It was a very filling and delicious breakfast!

bfastI had to use Franks hot sauce because of the fact that we are a sirachaless household right now. It just wasn’t the same.

I’m hoping to be able to shovel myself out at some point to get to the gym, if not it’s looking like another at home WOD.

Happy Friday!!!

Binge eating

Binge. Oh what a dirty little word that is. For anyone who has been over weight I’m sure this word is somewhere in your vocabulary.

Binge: a noun; : a short period of time when you do too much of something.

How simple and yet one of the most complicated issues to address. When I was at my heaviest this was my biggest fault. I was not only a binger, I was a closet binger. I would hide food, sneak food, pretend it wasn’t me that ate it, maybe if I wasn’t caught and no one knew I ate that bag of Doritos, maybe it wouldn’t count….wrong.

I use come home at night from my retail job with a bag of chips and a diet coke hiding in my pocketbook. I would wait till my mom went to bed and then I would sneak it into my room and eat it before I went to bed. Hiding the evidence in my side table. How ashamed I was. How embarrassed I was.

I can proudly say those days are behind me. But every now and then I still have to battle the binge monster. It happens with out me even realizing. Pretzel crisps and humus, I can sit and eat the entire bag in one sitting with out even realizing I did it-Binge. I can eat lunch and then a half hour later want another cup of coffee with something sweet even though I just ate lunch-Binge. I can be sitting at work and be bored at 2pm and dive head first into my trailmix while absently eating the entire bag-Binge.
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This is a topic I’ve address with many of my clients and many of my friends. It’s something no one wants to admit they do but we all do it. Here are my tips for stopping the binge monster from taking over.

  1. Get up. Get up, go to bed, go for a walk, find something else to do. Binging¬†usually happens when I’m¬†bored. Sometimes at night when I’m relaxing before bed. A lot of times I will get up, take a shower and go to bed.
  2. Always portion snacks. I know myself and I know if I have a bag of pretzel crisps sitting on my desk, by the end of the day I will have eaten that entire bag. So to stop that, I portion out a serving size of my snack and then I don’t have to think about it.
  3. Always keep your goals in mind. Sometimes when I fall into that dark hole, the only way to pull myself out is to remember where I started and what my goal is. On days when there are donuts and bagels all over my office, I remind myself constantly what my goals are, and that that donut is not going to do ANYTHING for me.
  4. Stay positive. NEVER EVER let a binge turn into a self-hatred¬†session! Just because you slipped or you had a bad day, do not put yourself down. This is a reason I never use the term “Cheat Day” If I chose to eat off of my “plan” than I accept that, It doesn not mean I cheated or I failed. Handle binging the same way, accept it and move on. Let your next meal be spot on!

It has taken me a long time to come to terms with all of this. To not hate food or myself. I am human and I make mistakes that does not mean I fail. I have accomplished so much and I just have to remind myself how far i’ve come.

Snow is coming

I woke up this morning so confused on what day it was. Having a holiday in the middle of the week really throws me off. I kept thinking today was Monday, nope its thursday!

New Years Eve was amazing. Just the way I like it, nothing fancy just me and my family having a ton of fun. We are the family that when the drinks start flowing the country music gets cranked and everyone is singing and dancing. We are just happy to be together to ring in 2014!

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We woke up yesterday and dragged our butts still in our pjs over to my sisters for breakfast. My sister made two different breakfast casseroles. One with eggs, hash browns, and sausage in a crockpot and the other was a cinnamon roll one made in the over. The cinnamon one was delicious but I REALLY enjoyed the egg casserole.

We didn’t have anything planned yesterday so we came home and relaxed for a bit, Lola was completely bored with the fact that it was a New Year.

lolaWe had a couple free passes to Chunkys¬†that could only be used Monday-¬†Thursday so we decided to take advantage and go see The Wolf on Wallstreet. It was really good, a little longer than I expected, it was 3 hours long! I love me some Leo though! At chunkys¬†I skipped having anything to drink, just¬†a seltzer with lemon and lime and for lunch I had their grilled chicken salad. I forgot to ask for no cheese and I really don’t like cheese on my salads so I picked around it a lot, I also had a few handfuls of popcorn.

This morning we are all waking up to lots of snow and a lot more to come. They are saying it is going to continue to snow all the way to Friday at noon, giving us over a foot.

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It’s already coming down pretty hard here so it will be fun to see how much we end up with!

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I love the snow so I say just let it keep coming down!!

 

Work outs:

On New Years Eve we did the Filthy Fifty at the box.  I have to admit as awful as that WOD is, it is my favorite.  This is my fourth time doing it and my fastest time yet, 29:29!

I took yesterday off to rest and i’m¬†actually regretting that, I’m extremely¬†sore today and if I had gone for a quick run yesterday I probably wouldn’t be so bad. I am supposed to coach tonight at the gym so I will head in early and get my work out in.

Eats:

This morning I started with an oldie but a goodie. A cinnamon and raisen ezekiel muffin with peanut butter and an apple

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Excuse the paper plate. I didn’t feel like dirtying a dish!

My plan for dinner tonight is stir fry. We have some veggies that are on their last leg and need to be cooked!

I should probably go outside and shovel a path for the princess to go to the bathroom. Have a great Thursday everyone!

New Years Eve!

Just popping in really quick to capture yesterday and to say HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

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As for eats yesterday it was pretty simple;

  • Breakfast: Egg white omelette with veggies and sausage
  • Snack: a few honey wheat pretzels
  • Lunch: Salad with grilled chicken
  • Snack: I was starving when I got home from work so I ate half of a pita with some humus and turkey.
  • Dinner: CHILI! oh man it’s so good every single time I make it!

I headed over to the gym early yesterday I wanted to make sure I had enough time to get my full work out in. Here is the breakdown

Warm up: 2 rounds of Row 250m 10 sit ups, 10 push ups, 10 walking lunches

Back squat: 4X3 @ 105,115,125,130

OH Squats: 3X3 @ 65, 75, 75

Then: 100 dubs and 100 pull ups for time. My shoulder was bugging me by the time I got to this so I scaled the pullups for ring rows. I finished in 10:48.

I’m looking forward to wrapping up work early today.¬†I coach 1 class tonight but am going to go in early to have some fun with this WOD. Tonight we are doing Filthy Fifty and any crossfitters out there know it’s going to be a good and painful time!

Enjoy your night tonight everyone and have fun!!!

Weekend Wrap up

Monday mornings always hit so hard. especially¬†Mondays around the holidays. Our company is on “Shutdown” so most of the people are not back until January 2nd. Lets just say it is quiet around these parts.

18813ba36fa1f5797f525ad7d74255c9My weekend was nice and lazy. It is really rare for me and CJ to have a weekend with no commitments and to be able to actually spend more than an hour with each other.

After my run yesterday the two of us made breakfast and then settled in on the couch to watch a movie. I had so much cleaning and laundry to do but the couch just sounded like way better idea. So with coffee in one hand and petting lola¬†with the other we sat for a few hours watching The Town. I’ve only ever seen it when it is playing on TV so it was great to finally see it from beginning to end.

fee8304118f555288e55aef4da4d5cb7Finally around noon we decided we were going to take down the christmas decorations this weekend. I normally wait until New Years Day but with nothing else to do and really messy house it just seemed like a good idea, and I’m glad we did, now we have a nice clean house we don’t have to worry about on our day off this week.

Then we packed up the pup and headed over to my sister/mom’s house for dinner and the pats game. We love spending Sunday dinner with my family, even after we moved out we still find ourselves stopping over on Sunday afternoons.

Lets wrap up this weekends eats.

Saturday:

  • B-broccoli, spinach, chicken sausage omlette
  • S-Pretzel crisps¬†and humus
  • L-No lunch
  • D-Grilled chicken with brown rice and broccoli

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Sunday:

  • B-Broccoli, spinach, turkey and cheese omelette¬†with some sweet potato home fries
  • S-Pretzel crisps¬†and humus (this is officially gone…I can’t have these things in my house I eat them all)
  • L-Panera, tomato soup and a chicken ceaser salad
  • D-BBQ chicken, a little bit of mashed potatoes and broccoli
  • S-2 york peppermint patties.

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I apologize for the awful Iphone photos

Now lets talk about goals for this up coming week.

I am trying to cut down on the coffee. I currently only drink my own at home but the problem is I use coffee mate (I know I know) I’m completely addicted to this¬†one flavor but I’m¬†working on cutting it out completely.

Run Wednesday, Friday, Sunday. At least one of these needs to be hill sprints.

Crossfit Monday, Tuesday, Saturday. My rest day will be Thursday.

Clean eating: I did really good with this last week even with christmas in the middle. This week we have NYE at my sisters but thankfully I talked her into grilling for dinner rather than chinese food.

Happy Monday!!

Favorite day of the week

I love Sundays. It’s the only day of the week that I don’t have to set an alarm to get up. My only alarm is Lola ready to go out.
Last night when I went to bed I promised myself to get up and run. No excuses. I am proud to say I did exactly that!
I’m taking getting back into running very slow. I know I will get back to where I was but I don’t want to push it and get hurt. So a slow two miles with a few walking breaks was what this morning had on tap

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When I made it to the top of mile one I did 50 squats and 20 walking lunges. Turned around and came back home. It was a great start to my Sunday.

I have full intentions on cleaning my house today but as of right now my view is this

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A pup snuggled on my lap with a movie.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Truth

I wasn’t going to post again today but I had things I needed to get out of my head. I know there is probably no one out there reading this but maybe someday there will be and maybe someday my truths will help someone else.

I am in a dark place lately. A dark place I am all too familiar with. A place full of self-hatred¬†and being uncomfortable in my own skin. I have gained about 20lbs¬†and lately, I feel like that’s all I can see. I am completely unhappy that I let this happen, that I let the stress of life take over and I lost sight of my goals. Granted, I am far from where I began and I am far from giving up. It’s just sad to look in the mirror after 3 years and still want to cry….

I am taking pride in the fact that I am aware and getting back on track before it gets beyond me. That only 20 pounds was enough to snap me back into reality and I am not giving up. I just need to stop feeling this way and stop crying and feeling sorry for myself. I did this, I let things that happen this past year stress me out to the point that I forgot the most important thing to me and that is my health and my fitness.

The feeling of being proud of myself for my accomplishments is something I miss….I need to feel that again. I want to feel like people are proud of me for the hard work I’ve¬†done and that other people can see my progress. Right now I feel like the only thing people see is that I’m slipping.

BUT I have dedicated myself to this, I am other people’s coach and they need me to be on track. I have set goals for 2014 and I am working on fixing the things that have stressed me out the past year.

If these words do come across someone elses eyes I hope this helps them.I hope it catches someone else who is in this dark place and tells them not to give up. I’m worth the fight and I will continue to fight.

Later this weekend I am going to post my current measurements and some pictures…some rawness to where I currently am. I think I’ve been, not necessarily in denial but possibly thinking I could slip until things got better…well…thing aren’t going to get better until I make them better.

*End extremely long rant…….

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Weekend to Relax

I don’t know about you, but I love a weekend with no plans to be anywhere or do anything. Lets wrap up last night

After my run I came home, showered, and spent the rest of the night relaxing on the couch with Lola till the boyfriend got home. For dinner he stopped at Smokey bones and got take out. I got a bunless San Jose Burger (ground beef with pepperjack cheese, guacamole, and pablano peppers) with some sweet potato fries and broccoli.

We also shared some popcorn while watching a movie.

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*someone had a rough friday night

This morning I was up bright an early to coach my favorite class. I love Saturday mornings, it’s when everyone from the week can get together and have some fun. This morning was a little quieter than usual due to the holidays but it was still an awesome class!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Saturday morning are always great because after the WOD most people stay for open gym, which is when I get my work out in and then we do a little skill work. Today I did a work out that was from last week that I have had my eye on since I missed it.

For Time:

  • Row 500m
  • 5 Clean and Jerks @95lbs
  • Row 1000m
  • 5 Clean and Jerks
  • Row 1500m
  • 5 Clean and Jerks

Then I did some back squats 4X5 starting at 115 and working my way up 145. It was a great way to start my weekend!

As for the rest of the day I have absolutely nothing, zero, zilch, to do! I am going to relax and spend some time catching up on laundry and some movies ūüôā

Have a great weekend everyone!

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